I am slightly terrified that 20 years from now I'm gonna be waking up in cold sweat in my bed, asking myself, "What the FUCK am I doing with my life and how did I end up here??!!!" and then proceed to swallow 50 sleeping pills without choking on them first.

Try not to regret TOO much in life later, Maddie.

'Take it as it comes?' 'Accept life as it is?'
Fuck that.

Always (at least try and) fight for what you want,